light it up
Saturday, July 23, 2011
I absolutely hate this vicious cycle of getting your hopes raised just to let it be trampled all over again.
Stay strong my dear.
9:53 PM
Monday, July 11, 2011
I've prayed.
And this is what God said:Let it be.
He'll be the changer of hearts. He has always been.
Have I been serving out of restedness or restlessness of spirit? Have I worried and thought too much about it? Have I attempted to over-plan and micro-managed?
Trust. Complete trust and dependence on Him.
For His ways are higher than my ways and His thoughts higher than my thoughts.
Patience. Utter patience.
Strength arise as we wait upon Him.
Yes Lord, I'm trusting in you. I'm gonna let it be.
6:21 AM
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Does it matter if you're like that?
Being nonchalant in all your ways.
Does it matter if you're always this cold?
Even if you appear to be so open.
Does it matter when you walk away?
Choosing to hide in your own deserted corner.
Sometimes I wonder if what I did was enough.
Wonder whether God was taking me for spins.
You seem untouched, unchanged.
And I thought God had actually used me well.
It turns out that more work had to be done.
And I'm slightly losing hope too.
To a certain extent I don't even think I want or can talk to you ever again.
Because you've really disappointed me a lot. And it hurts.
But I'll keep praying;
For God can and will indeed create a change in you.
It may not be through me but there are bound to be others.
I don't know. I seriously don't know.
7:57 AM